I’ll never forget the feeling of being a misfit. Growing up, my life was marked by manipulation, narcissism, addiction, deceit, and abandonment. The first 24 years of my life were a blur of hopelessness and desperation. I struggled to find my place, to fit in with my peers or even my own family.
As I navigated the challenges of my childhood, I began to realize that I was carrying around a heavy burden. One that I’m still unpacking to this day. When I turned 18, I ran from my past, but I soon discovered that unless I did some core, foundational work, my life would continue to be inconsistent and unstable.
I felt like the wandering sheep from the parable, lost and without direction. But then, something changed. I was introduced to Jesus, and while the skies didn’t part and lightning didn’t strike, heaven cried out to me, and my heart responded.
I was in a pit, one that I didn’t dig myself, and I was desperate to escape. But no matter how hard I tried, the past kept pulling me back in. It was a vicious cycle of toxicity, one that I’d been trapped in my whole life.
That’s when God stepped in. He planted a seed in my heart, and over the past six years, it’s been watered, nurtured, and grown. I’ve witnessed miracle after miracle, and God has done a mighty work in my life.
He’s made my path straight, opened doors for me, and shown me that I have a Father who will never disappoint or abandon me. A Father who loves me with an unconditional love, who offers me grace, forgiveness, and guidance.
I wasn’t abandoned; I was found. And that’s where my journey with God began.
It hasn’t been easy, though. Life has thrown me some tough blows, and there have been times when I’ve felt like I’m in a boxing match, getting hit from all sides. But God has been my strength and comfort, even in the darkest times.
He doesn’t promise us a life without obstacles, but He does promise to never abandon us, to give us the strength to climb those hurdles, and to guide us through the tough times.
If you’re reading this and feeling the weight of your own struggles, I want you to know that you’re not alone. Your story is seen, your pain is acknowledged, and your hope is not lost. Take a step towards God today, and trust that He will meet you where you are. He is the Healer, the Restorer, and the Redeemer. And He is waiting for you.
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